i feel like a failure. told myself not to use the computer and hello viewers (whoever, wherever).
i had given in to the temptation. i was very disturbed in class tdy when on was chattering non-stop about her situational and it made me feel like slapping her. but ya, i controlled and sat on the floor. went to her place w best aft sch to do some chiong-ing for subjects. did paper 1 for emaths and read thru chem notes. VERY PRODUCTIVE!!, but we got drifted away after an hour or so. hahaha.
dad and i bought cake for that bitch at home. its my mother's birthday today. ya. and oh, goodluck viv for 'releasing' ur results to ur mother. i knw u'll be so touched when u see this and i'll be your best friend tmr too! (inside joke)

bad news: i will be attending tuition frm this sunday onwards.
ultra bad news: i have to attend chinese service.
ultra ultra bad news: i wont get to see my babes until maybe after olvls?
ultra ultra ultra bad news: its nearly 2 months.
damn bad news: i did smth wrong tdy.

moderate news: late for sch tdy.

good news: i will have fionn f company.
better better news: i did an essay just now.
best news: i got over XXXX (or at least i think so)

so, a mini hiatus for me now. mr lam's speech tdy was really motivational. NO MORE COMPUTER CHARMAINE! I will jog to relax now. Or maybe cycle. no wait, i dont have a bicycle anymore. i shall use the bicycle in my dad's room then.

happy birthday mom. hope you'll respect my decision i make soon....hopefully, faster.

wedding of the year soon (maybe). meanwhile, i am so pleased that i slept from 3pm to 530pm just now. it was really like a recharge time for me. at least i think it can see me thru my late night session tonight. i am ready to bring my power for the fuckity o lvls, or at least, i think so.

Realised that i had been improving in my anger management recently & im more than pleased with this major improvement. Anyway, to this certain somebody, pride comes before defeat. I know and i have tasted it. I hope you wont go through the similar torment i went through. God Bless.

Back to my anger management topic. I try not to shout at ppl esp my parents, i try to smile and say thank you after anyone has said something. I count to 10 when i feel that im going to swear. All these may seem like trivial matters to you, but to me, its a major leap. I improved from a person who uses vulgarities like punctuations to a somebody who uses it sparingly and its rare for me to use it now. Thats why i say, hold evtg in prayer. God has a timing for evtg. and his timing is always right. bcus i feel the urge (NOW) to do well in olvls so that i wont disappoint my parents and living up to my personal motto of...Challenging yourself.

Its quite late for me to realise that but its better than nothing.

Goodbye.

(hopefully its for long.... :P)

i am hankering after...

very happy for a few ppl that had made significant improvement. and i admire them, so much that i hope to be like them. i hope my admiration wont turn to jealousy. i am jealous of ppl easily, really. but i think after turning 16, i shld exercise some maturity and not be so immature and childish in my thoughts. after all, i am born to be...me. thats what makes me special. so i just have to deal with my stuffs one by one. i am not a victim, i am a victor. only victory belongs to me. i hope my mother will be more supportive of me. thts all i hope for. seriously...

In conclusion

• L1R5 15, not fantastic but im fine with it.
• Pepperlunch with best. Time spent with her is always so quality ^o^
• Congrats to tanny. I really feel happy for her. Really. I dont know how to phrase but, ya. ^O^
• I tried to remain compose today.

SWEEEEET

so adorable. this is sutan amrull. the perfect someone. HAHHAHA

talking to best on da phone now. nice fun gossiping ard n y'know. girls kinda stuff.

i mean what can u do at home when the whole class gg for class outing and your damn ass mother is like a bitch. oh okay, sometimes, being a girl is everything. guys? suck. okay i sound like a sexist. but oh, whatever.

02.

Josh Goot's Spring 2009. Totally stunning.
I survived on a cup of water from ytd till now. I am a shrivelled prune.

XOXO.

PEACE X HARMONY

COLD WAR VI IN THE HOUSE.

SIAN

SUTAN. He looks gorgeous in this cut. Though he looked fiercer and weet*weet* in his long hair.

He looks awesome in C12. LIKE OMG!!!!! SUTAN!!!!!!!! Okay, prelims over. Watched 9 with on and best tdy at town. Bought NYLON, bought bread, toured ard and uniqlo-ed. HAPPY-THREE-DAY. BYE.

i have a confession to make. i am deeply in love with sutan.

who cares if u ppl think he's gay. i am in love with him. his tattoos and his evtg. just like bill kaulitz. yummy yummy.

...

fuck fuck fuck. i just wanted to say fuck.
anyway, i just woke up. i love amber! why did she quit frm the competition? and i support nicole all the way, she reminds me of allison. One's creepy chan and the other's bloody eye. Wooo, cool. I love injections, so does that make me extraordinary too? LOL.

Anyway, ytd night, i just realised that o lvls are coming. U know, it sends those crazy chill down ur spine. But ironically, i am not pushing myself to work for it. Apparently, i cant be bothered about O LVLS or ALVLS. Seriously, i dont understand why my parents want me to die die get into a JC and die there?!?! No fucking logic, i mean, its my life. No matter if i die, survive or bullshit holymama run over by a truck, its my life. Right?

wall street brokers. i like-y fo's eyes here because fionn n viv know that i cant do it. oh ya, had been watching we got married and gave up after ep 5. Boring. Shall take a break after this silly amath paper i had tdy. I wonder if i can pass well bcus i thought paper 2 was rather easy and you know, smtimes when i find papers easy, the results turn out..BAD.

Freaking in love with Alexander Wang. Okay, catching a movie at cine on thurs. Love my girls. Watched tv at on's house before paper was shiokness. Really. I like-y her couch. Okay, bye.

i feel damn ugly now. really. i just grew a freaking acne on my shoulder. tell me what to do ppl??? i had one on my neck like 2 days ago and i think because i fuck-ly burst it, it spread or smth! OH FUCK OH FUCK! Guess what? I did nothing but 3 pages of geog tdy, and 5 questions of amath. I know, i am really amazing. On top of that...i went Old Airport Rd for foood! So dad was saying: Jie u prepared huh?

me: average la.

dad: maybe prepared to fail?

me: hahhahahhaaha. thanks....

so ya, thats abt it. time to feed my craving for videos. theres like a whole lot of things to watch. i think i'll sleep by 330am tdy. okay. bye

2010 RTW

Spring RTW 2010

Alexander Wang

Makes me feel like getting leathered pants. Oh well. $.$

Resort 2010

Alexander Wang
Runway Spring 2010 RTW
an amazing man, with an amazing BRAIN

2010 RTW Faves has gotta go to Alexander Wang. I think Marc by Marc Jacobs has some pretty designs too. Shall upload them later. Checking out herve leger's spring 2010 RTW and oh yes, i think Lily donaldson is cute. Agree agree? Nevermind. Jessica stam is number one. :)

Can anyone beat them? OMG! The more i see bill kaulitz, the more i feel like meeting him and kissing him right on his cheeks. FREAKING ADORABLE!!!! I think tom is cute too! The more i look at them, the more i wanna meet them. TOKIO HOTEL!!!

B.O.D, Loading videos. Havelock some other day. I wanna go to Old Airport Rd for lotsa food. Okay, videos now. I had practically screwed my prelims 2...so i shant bother abt the remaining. Okay, i will study..but maybe tmr? or sunday? or monday? whatever.

oh i can see that coming.

shit fart. shit tart. shit ass.

i am so bloody screwed. fuck

i am so bloody screwed. fuck

i am so bloody screwed. fuck

i am so bloody screwed. fuck

scans

Felt rather bouncy to use my new scanner. So tada, scanned some stuffs.

I am watching take care of agasshi now. yoon eun hye is really pretty. :) okay, bye

sound

When you're good, nobody forgets you.

Still my obsession, Tokio Hotel. Just completed 1h30mins of Chemistry. Gonna bathe and have some food. Guess what? I re-watched 王子变青蛙 last night. Slept at 3am. And im only at episode 8 now. Dang, i must complete the show tdy or else i'll watch it during my prelims. Shldnt have gone to search for shows to watch. Big hugs.

Smile

B.O.D tdy, girlies talk at on's place tdy. Lingerie soon kay? Love my girls tonnes.

So are you going down? See you there.

Things a did on 100909:

1. Social studies 2 chapter (check)
2. Chemistry (check)
3. Geography 2 chapts (check)
4. 3 amath questions (check)
5. stare at physics syllabus (check)

very-the productive uh?

because i feel ugly, you ppl will no longer see any photos of me.

Ready Set Go

BMT POP!



I feel ugly. 3Pm now, and all i did so far was 2 chapters of social studies. I think i am gonna screw prelim 2 more than prelim 1. Seriously, i havent touched physics and a whole bloody shit of history! The rest and touched-and-go. So there you go, my so called very productive day. Hugging mao now, and i think im getting rather sensitive nose cus mao is dropping more fur. Mom is off to da bank and im so happy. I just love it to the max when mom is away. Speaking of that, she has yet to approve or support my decision of not gg to a jc. Apparently, my mom thinks that only jc will secure you a good job in future, but i do not see to that. I think no matter what route you choose to take, u do your best, and you will still excel in it. Well, mom obviously doesnt think i am gg to excel in the path i am choosing. What a supportive mother i have, indeed.

Gave geog lessons a miss. On n best came over to prep for bbq.

Were productive in studying for 3hrs or so before going bonkers. Redbull taking effect.
Four-of-us had dinner at the coffee shop. Lotsa fun and laughter.

BBQ Time.

Not many photos cus i feel ugly. Okay, bye.

Wear on's sis socks n played retard. Thats so me. HAHAHA

that was yesterday. we toured bugis. bought a tote at cotton on, freaking cheap. Fionn got MUJI stuffs. On's house and tried to study. Anyway, woke up not long. Getting ready to go sch for physics. So boring and i am daring myself to pon tdy's lesson. But apparently, my mother is at home and i'd rather leave for sch than to stay home and see her face. Researched on parsons new school of design. It is like 31% intl students. It comprises mostly of intl students than the 29% euroupean americans! So it sounds rather possible. But then the criteria is madness and the tuition fees are madness too. If i were to study abroad, i wont want to touch a cent of mom's money, because i'd rather earn it by myself. So now, the problem comes in. Where am i gonna find a job to earn me big bucks for tuition fees? See, another dream. Sigh. Alexander wang is really like my role model now. I hope i'll make it big one day like marc jacobs and donna karen. All good people graduate from parsons. Okay, charmaine STOP DREAMING! pls slap me...

I want to earn big money. I want to enter, Parsons The New School for Design. It seems almost unreachable and i think i must be dreaming. Well, i had always dreamed. I had been dreaming for 16years, or at least i think so. After i make it big, i will spend my life travelling around the world, helping the poor. Because i'd rather spend my time helping the poor than to yield my life to a guy or family commitments. Rest assured, i'll do what it takes to prove mom that this is the path that i want. Not a levels, not o lvls, whatever shit. NO.

i really dislike my facial features. :'(

youtubing now. locked a number of posts in lj. oh yes, i think i am really shifting back to blogger. who cares. did temasek paper 1 for amath tdy and 1 chapter of ss tdy. i think i wasted tdy. ytd night was the best night of my life. and i would love to thank mom for allowing me to do so. Mom's leaving for KL after my papers on nov 23rd after which NZ follows and HK/BKK. Okay, the travel bug. gg along w mom for the KL trip. I smell bkk. No?

Already Gone

Howdy! Just woke up. Last night was absolutely madness. So tired. Farewell, papers plus a whole night of siao-gina. Didnt finish uploading fotos onto facebook cos' 1. too many 2. need to go out. 3. rather lazy. ^o^ I hope tdy would be rather productive, considering the fact that i had been slacking ever since prelims 1 were over. Returning back to blogger. the vibe is here. quatorze mois. (i think only viv understands if she understands french). Do i smell bkk cmg? My three loves and i are planning it big. 1. sleepovr at my place 2. bkk trip 3. japan trip

obviously japan sounds almost unreachable. i havent even been thr with my parents. alright, maybe we'll start with KL/JB for beginners. So many things to do now, if i add studying into my list, i think i'll burst...like now!

*poooooof*

Farewell

Didnt managed to take pics w everyone. Anyway, my face is cmi alr. So cant be bothered. A big thank you to the juniors for the amazing farewell. It was really fun and really, all the performances were very engaging. Esp the last one. I will definately miss all of you. Every single one, even though choir was really a bore, but u people are the best juniors every. Really.

this had to be my fave performance. ^o^

sibeh zai one. 2 times zhun ok....

yes, vivian was the photographer. I have like 130 photos for farewell. How to upload? plus videos sial. Die alr.

4 Sept

Fionn's place to do some work and fascinate ourselves before rushing back f english paper 2.
oh yes, vivian is born to live with my camera. She can just take pictures non-stop. I swear.

31st august

we were craving for food. considered places like vivo and plaza sing but in the end, we gave Changi Airport a go. Rather silly to travel all the way there for sushi and food and alot of stupid shots. But anyway, we enjoyed that day and we ended the day well with a whole roll of films at the Library. happy 4 years best!

+ Mom came home the very nx day with bro frm aussie. brought home lots of kangas, koalas and foods and magz.